Hi folks, Kate here.Bedraggled, haggard, but kickin around. I wore clothes other than pyjamas too - no wait, that was yesterday.
Today the roller-coaster ride took a deep dip, and was not good. Unpleasant. Physically renting asunder stuff. It is a humiliating physical experience, or perhaps, I should view it more as humbling.
Yesterday, there was no need of roller-coaster metaphor, and it was a good day all around.
Stephanie is here (my sister, from Raleigh, NC, leaving her own life behind for an entire week- karmic debt to universe paid in full) and has been an unbelievable help. Holding my hand, wiping a tear, making me laugh, taking the kids to the dentist....the list is too long, and I know there is a high price for this much coveted visit on her part.
And also, once again mercifully, the list of people is long, who lovingly and graciously, generously, provide for me and mine, on so many levels:
Food - ok, my friends can cook!
Love - in ample amounts, at every turn
Thoughts, prayers - in person, over the phone, internet, in the mail....
Mini-visits - really, the only way to describe the lovely little drop ins, check in calls, messages. I really appreciate it SO much. I feel the love. It's awesome.
When I feel super crappy, I roll a film I have made up in my head - simple really, all of you out there, each one waving and smiling at me, each on your own little screen shot. It is a sunny bright day, and you are back-lit by sun, in a lovely green space. There is a breeze in the trees behind you, and you look straight into the camera, and give me your best. There are some goofy grins and some shy smiles. It helps me through some dark spots, this film. It has endless frames of delightful countenances.
So, no more chemo till the 24th, and hopefully lots of rest and feeling ok in between. I swear, I feel the tumour is smaller today.